The wings of love beat a drums cadence across my heart.
I catch my breath when I see your face
Never could I imagine this heartache,
Never have I needed so much peace.
Some days I feel hollowed.
Trapped and bleeding for more time
For more of anything to help me survive.
Then your love swoops in and I am rescued by ravenous descent.
There is a nawing pain, and a litlted whistle
And angels themselves could cry.
What am I saying, what have I done
To deserve a love so unpredictable, so perfect, and so lame?
I claw my way from the blackness
I mold glitter to my skin and flowers to my hair.
I take the stars for protective knifes
and shoot t
There is the bubble inside me
It's trying to fight it's way out
So many thing suppress it
Love
Stress
Fear
Time.
It's locked itself in my chest
Forcing little spasms of grief into my heart
Just when i think I've swallowed it
It proves itself a nuisance once again
I try to shift it
Cure it
Remove it,
but it's tight grip on my soul is hard to ignore.
I want to be better than I am
But there is always something pulling me back
Keeping me grounded with my nose pinned to the wall.
I wish I couldn't feel.
Then maybe it wouldn't matter.
Give in- or Give up? by ablessingandacurse, literature
Literature
Give in- or Give up?
How many times do you expect me to let you break my heart?
I can only handle so much pain
and even though we've stopped fighting
Even though the rest of the world thinks that we are okay,
In my heart I know we are not.
I can hear the cracking,
and the pain brings tears to my eyes.
Though I do my best not to shed them
these tears burn holes inside me.
They turn to bitter crystals,
and they ring together inside my head
to the beat of my broken heart.
Just this admission
makes the hairs on my neck and arms stand up
I don't know how much more of this I can take
Waiting for the next fight is killing me slowly
I dread the dark hours
The wings of love beat a drums cadence across my heart.
I catch my breath when I see your face
Never could I imagine this heartache,
Never have I needed so much peace.
Some days I feel hollowed.
Trapped and bleeding for more time
For more of anything to help me survive.
Then your love swoops in and I am rescued by ravenous descent.
There is a nawing pain, and a litlted whistle
And angels themselves could cry.
What am I saying, what have I done
To deserve a love so unpredictable, so perfect, and so lame?
I claw my way from the blackness
I mold glitter to my skin and flowers to my hair.
I take the stars for protective knifes
and shoot t
I don't know where to go
From here
I thought I knew what I wanted
Out of life
Thought I knew what I needed
From you
But I don't have it
Nothing here seems real
Anymore
And my days are all routine
I wake up in the morning
And sometimes
After noon
I got to work
I eat
Clean
Sleep
Dream
Fight
Laugh
Cry
Scream
And it's all the same
I touch your face
And it's familiar
I don't find comfort in that
I lay beside you every night
I don't find passion
Or lust
Just promise
I would think that should be enough
It's not
But there is something in the air
Like change is happening
Not of my doing
I'm not even looking
But I
Someone asked me
"How long have you been in love?"
It took me less than a second to reply with
"A couple of days."
They came back with
"I'm sorry."
...
I'm not.
I've known you for six years now.
I think a part of me loved you that first night
You climbed into the backseat of my car
Interested, not in me, but in my best friend
My sister of the heart
But I truly believe something in me recognized you.
Oh sure I fought it for as long as I could
She was one of my closest companions after all
But you two were so unhappy together
Seeing it tore me apart
Years later I look back and see the pain I caused that friend
Th
(insert your own personal exasperation expletive here)
I'm so damned tired
I can't seem to get ahead
I'm stuck in the place between moving forward
and standing still
all my movements
and reactions
are only half the impulse
PLEASE!
give me something to live for.
My dreams are coming apart
their seams have been altered
restitched, let out, and tossed away
so many times
I've pricked my finger on the thorns
blood wets my thirsts
yet still I long for that hunger
the one that slipped away
Dammit!
I need something to live for.
every breath I take is stagnant
broken and wheezing I suck another in
it shakes my body
burns in m
What is it you want me to say?
Please stop looking at me like that.
(Sigh)
I don't know.
I said- I don't know.
(clear throat)
It isn't mine.
I don't own anything like that, I've never seen it before.
No.
(Cross arms)
No.
(Uncross arms... Hands on hips)
I said... No.
I don't know.
What is that look for?
(Sigh)
What do you want me to say?
(Drop arms)
I'm not sorry.
Little Big Pride by ablessingandacurse, literature
Literature
Little Big Pride
Naturally a child is supposed to
look up to their older siblings,
and their parents.
As the oldest child
I know some part of you looked up to me
And I took pride in that,
In knowing the choices I made-
Good or bad-
would somehow help to shape your life,
and knowing that you loved me
simply because we are family,
well that makes the pride stronger.
But, I have a confession.
It is you who needs be proud,
and it is YOU whom I look up to.
You've set your heart to a goal
and you've captured it
That is motivational- and inspiring.
Have you ever heard the expression
"Today is your day."
Truer words have never been spoken.
Bec
The wings of love beat a drums cadence across my heart.
I catch my breath when I see your face
Never could I imagine this heartache,
Never have I needed so much peace.
Some days I feel hollowed.
Trapped and bleeding for more time
For more of anything to help me survive.
Then your love swoops in and I am rescued by ravenous descent.
There is a nawing pain, and a litlted whistle
And angels themselves could cry.
What am I saying, what have I done
To deserve a love so unpredictable, so perfect, and so lame?
I claw my way from the blackness
I mold glitter to my skin and flowers to my hair.
I take the stars for protective knifes
and shoot t
"It's a bone deep knowing that nothing can shake from you. No amount of resistance nor opposition can waver the faith you have, and that is why love conquers all. Because when you know, You KNOW, and not a damn thing can change it."
Current Residence: Midnight Favourite genre of music: Country, Rock, and Celtic all tie on my list Personal Quote: "I am the maker of rules... Dealing in fools, I could cheat you blind."
Favourite Visual Artist
You!
Favourite Movies
Ever After, The Harry Potter Series'
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Tempest
Favourite Books
currently: The Cousins Wars Series by Phillipa Gregory
It's been a long time since I've posted anything. I check in every once in a while but only out of habit.
Things have changed for me. I'm finally in school. Going to try and dual major Writing and business.
I just got married Finally. July 13th, to Raven. :) I know. It's crazy that it took so long, but the whole day was amazing and everything was perfect.
I'm going to try to be little bit more active. But this is it for right now. TTYL
~Me